Adoration...or OBSESSION?

When I was a little girl, I collected stuffed animals.  I couldn't get enough and without a doubt I had more than any of my other friends.  I had so many, my parents decided to build some shelves in my room to hold them all.  So, they put up three extra large shelves that covered TWO walls in my room, the length of the walls themselves over my bed.  Once I filled them with the stuffed animals, shoulder to shoulder and the smaller ones in front of the larger ones, it STILL didn't hold them all!  I bet  I had hundreds of these things.  I even had a GIANT one that was so big, I couldn't even lift it! 

I think it was the soft cuddly nature of these things.  I normally placed several on my bed and when I went to sleep at night, I always had a bevy of stuffed animals around me.  I would hold one as I slept, spooning it to death if it were alive.  One of my animals even played a part in my transition from child to adolescent but that is another blog for another day.

My animals were always warm and comforting, never bitched at me to clean my room, never asked me to babysit, never stunted my creativity, and most importantly, never left me alone. 

Maybe this is why I love Beefcake so dearly.  He comforts me in a way that no human or other dog has ever been able to do.  When I look at that sweet face, I want to melt.  It doesn't even matter that when he barks its like a knife soaring through my eardrums or that he routinely bounces around begging for food when I eat.  He is adorable. 

This dog has been there in a time in my life when I felt alone.  It didn't matter what stresses lay upon me or what the day held.  When I come home and see that hyper little rodent dog boucing around in delight, balancing on his hind legs and his spindley little front legs going ninety to nothing in a bicycle motion, his little pointy tail wiggling around, and his little cough that he does when he gets excited...well, I could just die from pure joy. 

I love his fat little bald chest.  I often hold him up like a man hold his baby up and throw him in the air and catch him and you know what?  I kiss his fat little bald chest and tell him I love him.  A friend of mine noticed his chest for the first time tonight and he loved it just the same.  I love his boney little feet and his gray mustache.  I love his little butt and the fact that he puffs his chest out and stands really tall when other tiny dogs are around so he can make himself look bigger. 

He lays in my laundry basket and sleeps, sits in the windowsil like a cat, crawls up and perches on my shoulder while I am on the computer, fetches items almost as big as he is...he is wonderful to me!

When I go to sleep at night, he must be touching me at all times.  The weight of his tiny little head on my leg, foot, arm, etc. is enough for me to forget my worries and just delight in the moisture of his teeny little nose.  I can move him at any time and cuddle him tighly.  I can literally lay on top of this tiny dog, smothering him in my busom and he LOVES it.  He wont move from the spot I place him in, exactly like... a stuffed animal.  He has actually made me late for work in the morning when I am not ready to stop cuddling him.  I feel it's wittle breath and I don't want to get up in the morning! 

                

Most of all, this dog is incredibly loving to me.  He knows my every move.  There is rarely a time when I am at home and he is not right beside me.  If I leave the room, you can believe he is there with me, checking out where I am.  He pays attention to my moods, facial expressions and body language so well that sometimes I can simply look at him a certain way and he will lie down and wait for me to give him a treat.  Other times, I can look at him and he will growl or bark at me to demand that I do something for him; either let him out, give him a treat, throw his toy, etc.  This dog and I understand each other, we communicate!

Believe, I could go on forever about this crazy little creature that shares my life.  I will just leave it here because the cold medicine and crown might be getting to me tonight.  Goodnight all!